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UNWRITTEN...I am unwritten Can't read my mind I'm undefined I'm just beginning The pen's in my hand Ending unplanned Staring at the blank page before you Open up the dirty window Let the sun illuminate the words That you could not find Reaching for something in the distance So close you can almost taste it Release your inhibitions Feel the rain on your skin No one else can feel it for you Only you can let it in No one else, no one else Can speak the words on your lips Drench yourself in words unspoken Live your life with arms wide open Today is where your book begins The rest is still unwritten Oh, oh I break tradition Sometimes my tries Are outside the lines We've been conditioned To not make mistakes But I can't live that way, no Staring at the blank page before you Open up the dirty window Let the sun illuminate the words That you could not find Reaching for something in the distance So close you can almost taste it Release your inhibitions Feel the rain on your skin No one else can feel it for you Only you can let it in No one else, no one else Can speak the words on your lips Drench yourself in words unspoken Live your life with arms wide open To the years where your book begins Feel the rain on your skin No one else can feel it for you Only you can let it in No one else, no one else Can speak the words on your lips Drench yourself in words unspoken Live your life with arms wide open To the years where your book begins The rest is still unwritten Staring at the blank page before you Open up the dirty window Let the sun illuminate the words That you could not find Reaching for something in the distance So close you can almost taste it Release your inhibitions Feel the rain on your skin No one else can feel it for you Only you can let it in No one else, no one else Can speak the words on your lips Drench yourself in words unspoken Live your life with arms wide open To the years where your book begins Feel the rain on your skin No one else can feel it for you Only you can let it in No one else, no one else Can speak the words on your lips Drench yourself in words unspoken Live your life with arms wide open To the years where your book begins The rest is still unwritten The rest is still unwritten The rest is still unwritten
UNTITLED 11...I HOPE YOU READ THIS AND SHARE! XSo today I was talking to my mum. We always have these great deep conversations about life and all that's in it. Anyway, I told her about my questions and wonders, and such. I've gathered this: Let's ask ourselves, Why do we get angry? And sometimes stay angry at someone for so long? Why do we say ''there is no God''? Why do we hate? Why are there wars? Why do we lie sometimes, to people and most times to ourselves? Why do we try to stop ourselves from falling in love? At this point I'm wondering if I should leave this as an open discussion....hmmm....but I'm thinking I'll just say it as I gathered.....maybe. Why do we do most things we do? My mum told me today, that one of the hardest things to do in life is to look yourself in the mirror, see who you really are and where you really are at, see your life for what it is, and simply say ''Dear God, help me!'' or simply admit your far from the right track and that it's time to make that scary turn towards your true dreams. I guess we do what we do most times because we are so afraid... Afraid to stop being angry and take a look at ourselves and say....’’ok, so maybe I was wrong'' or take a second look and see that that person has truly changed and give your heart again. Afraid to believe that just maybe there's a higher power and that he is God. Afraid of the disappointment we think we may get. Afraid to be teased and disliked. Afraid that our faith will be crushed and that in the end we would have believed a lie....let me pause to ask here... what if..What if it really were true that there is a God, and that everything you've heard about him is true. What if you could just take some time to listen and I mean listen to the RIGHT message and people who can teach you the truth about him and the amazing supernatural life that you can experience. What if in the end there really was judgement and you'll have to stand before him to give account of your life... wouldn't you rather have believed all along? Than discover you should have but it was too late? Afraid to love that person that hurt you because you think he might just do it again. Afraid to love that dysfunctional family of yours because well, they'll probably just hurt all your hopes of them ever changing because they just are beyond repair. Well, what if they aren't beyond repair? What if it just needs a few more months or years of faith? of prayer? What if it just needs love for them to change? What if it just needs love and patience to make the difference worth the wait and time? Afraid of our opponents...that if we're not plotting evil against them, they'll probably beat us to it and destroy us, while they themselves are afraid that we'll destroy them. So just from fear sometimes, we attack ourselves. Afraid that if we don't gain all the power that we can, we would fall out. Afraid that we will be below our opponents and so we have to grab as much money, respect power at all cost. Afraid of the truth and what it may yield. We're so afraid of many things, that sometimes we miss out onIT everything. I guess sometimes fear may be classified as ''caution''..Etc. But fear is such a powerful tool that can destroy a person's life. Take caution, but do not fear. Have faith and love. Perfect love casts out fear. Because even while you’re asking yourself ''what if it doesn't work out?'' ‘‘What if I fail?'', I'm asking well ''what if you succeed?'', ''what if you become all you've ever dreamed?'' One of my best friends has a dream that's so big and sometimes scares us for him. But his determination is amazing. And he has so much faith that he will make it against the odds. I think that's an example of courage. Of courage to believe and to dream. And because of that I believe with all my heart that he's going to be the world's greatest. And I believe that for all of you. There's always that possibility, no matter how blur and unstable life seems sometimes. Let's Imagine what it'd be like if we actually had faith and did all we wanted to do and had to do for a long time...amazing right?
today.So today driving by town I was thinking to myself...ok I was thinking about a lot of stuff. I can't say I remember everything. But anyway, at this office I saw this guy and heard him talking about how his kids might have to drop out of school because he has no money, and he just had an accident and barely had enough money to finish treatment. And he was like he didn't want his kids to suffer what he suffered as a child. I felt so sad for him, I almost cried in the office, but had to stop myself. I just feel sad at the amount of poverty there is in the world. I wish I could do something to save everyone, and maybe someday I will be able to. Sometimes I feel like there is something I don't get. Like I don't get how I'm supposed to live or be. Like I'm doing things wrong. And lately I guess I've just been questioning a lot....hopefully, I'll figure things out soon. It's funny that my dreams were clearer when I was much younger... I'm not sad or anything so u don't have to worry for me but I guess, I'm just still finding my way, and somedays are better than the others, but altogether, I believe the journey is leading somewhere anyway... well the next blog will be better...heheh :/
STILL I RISE!!
i LOVE THIS poem... STILL I RISE-MAYA ANGELOU You may write me down in history With your bitter, twisted lies, You may trod me in the very dirt But still, like dust, I'll rise. Does my sassiness upset you? Why are you beset with gloom? 'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells Pumping in my living room. Just like moons and like suns, With the certainty of tides, Just like hopes springing high, Still I'll rise. Did you want to see me broken? Bowed head and lowered eyes? Shoulders falling down like teardrops. Weakened by my soulful cries. Does my haughtiness offend you? Don't you take it awful hard 'Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines Diggin' in my own back yard. You may shoot me with your words, You may cut me with your eyes, You may kill me with your hatefulness, But still, like air, I'll rise. Does my sexiness upset you? Does it come as a surprise That I dance like I've got diamonds At the meeting of my thighs? Out of the huts of history's shame I rise Up from a past that's rooted in pain I rise I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide, Welling and swelling I bear in the tide. Leaving behind nights of terror and fear I rise Into a daybreak that's wondrously clear I rise Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave, I am the dream and the hope of the slave. I rise I rise I rise.
A LITTLE SUNDAY MORNING INSPIRATION!!! :)
Just One
One song can spark a moment,
One smile begins a friendship,
One vote can change a nation,
One step must start each journey.
One voice can speak with wisdom,
One life can make a difference,
If I Had my Child To Raise Over Again
If I had my child to raise all over again,
Promise Yourself
Promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind.
Follow Your Dream
Follow your dream.
Start Where You Stand
Start where you stand and never mind the past,
The world won't care about your old defeats
Why Not You? Today, many will awaken with a fresh sense of inspiration. Why not you? Today, many will open their eyes to the beauty that surrounds them. Why not you? Today, many will choose to leave the ghost of yesterday behind and seize the immeasurable power of today. Why not you? Today, many will break through the barriers of the past by looking at the blessings of the present. Why not you? Today, for many the burden of self doubt and insecurity will be lifted by the security and confidence of empowerment. Why not you? Today, many will rise above their believed limitations and make contact with their powerful innate strength. Why not you? Today, many will choose to live in such a manner that they will be a positive role model for their children. Why not you? Today, many will choose to free themselves from the personal imprisonment of their bad habits. Why not you? Today, many will choose to live free of conditions and rules governing their own happiness. Why not you? Today, many will find abundance in simplicity. Why not you? Today, many will be confronted by difficult moral choices and they will choose to do what is right instead of what is beneficial. Why not you? Today, many will decide to no longer sit back with a victim mentality, but to take charge of their lives and make positive changes. Why not you? Today, many will take the action necessary to make a difference. Why not you? Today, many will make the commitment to be a better mother, father, son, daughter, student, teacher, worker, boss, brother, sister, & so much more. Why not you?
Today is a new day!
As you travel through life there are always those times
There are some situations where all you can do
So pack up your troubles and take a step forward
There might be adventures you never imagined
Perhaps you'll find friendships that spring from new things
Perhaps you'll go places you never expected
Perhaps you'll find warmth and affection and caring
Perhaps you'll find comfort in knowing your friends
So keep putting one foot in front of the other, Stay blessed!! xx :)
ermm....Untitled...Well, it's been a long while since I last wrote. Gosh can't believe how long it's been....lol. I've missed writing here. Now what to write?...what to write?...hmmmm... well, um. This is prolly gonna be scanty and soooo random but I just couldn't sign out without saying something. Haha....LOve you all! Stay blessed! I'll write more soon. Goodnight! xxooxx My mood: pretty okay
UNTITLED 10!What is pain? How do you describe pain? .........................................................................................empty lines appear in my head. I can't describe it. I do not understand it. Are we....should we....Do we really....Do I really.........the words are ceasing.......I do not know what to write. It's beyond human intelligence. Beyond reasoning. And I'm thinking, does a person just feel pain, when there's no pain????? Pain when nothing painful has happened????? And how so you justify such pain, when there are other people who are actually in painful situations????
TITILED 2!Who do we see?...Who do we think?...Who em...Who are w...um...Who is who really?..Who.....is....who? Spend a lot of time staring at the phone in anticipation of a beep from someone that can or has changed our lives...Spend some time lost in wonder and sometimes intentional oblivion. I like the thought of ''Lassoing the moon''. *laughs* We can't really pull tight on air, can we..?
....TITLED 1..**scoffs* *tsk tsk tsk* ''What?'' ''um..nothing'' Pause. ''what?'' ''....It's just, it's funny how you laugh at me because I'm different, when it's so much funnier how you're all the same..''
UNTITLED 9!!!I'm writing, because someone told me...''Your art matters...It's what brought me here....'' Or at least I wish someone did tell me.... I guess I'm writing because there's so much to say?.....or just because really..... A lot has happened, it's felt like 2 years in 2 weeks....But drawing nearer and nearer the other end of the tunnel, many of the past experiences and events matter less and less to u, and u fuss and pine less over these sometimes heartbreaking discoveries. There is a certain blindness in a view from the outside, if I say that correctly. My point is, we see more from the inside. There is more on the inside, than we imagine. It's easier for a person who has been homeless before to open up their home willingly to another homeless person, or for someone who has known what it is to have to walk long distances to work for a meal, to feed someone who is hungry. I do not blame those who do not, neither will I ever excuse it. We can only truly understand when we have experiences these things. We can only understand why we should never judge anyone when we ourselves have at one time or the other been wrongly or harshly judged. That is why every single human being must go through a difficult time at some point in their lives. You either come out of it bitter, or better. Better is better. If we see trials as an opportunity to learn how to be better blessings to other people, and as an opportunity to learn and be equipped for a greater level and upliftment in our future, they become easier to bear and come out of victoriously. Even roses have thorns. And do u see how large the stories and biographies of truly successful people are. (Not just people who are rich or have great assets, people who have touched lives and made other people's better) I may have minced words, but, I'm only writing from my heart as it comes to my head. This is what I can say, the journey is truly the destination. Without it, then where are we really going.... A little thought to think on...''Life is beautiful, love it....and treat it as if it deserved to be loved and lived...'' God bless! XxoO! UNTITLED 8!!It's been some proper time, since I last updated this blog!! Hmm...don't know what to write really.... Just thought to write something......Now that I'm older....(and wiser...?)... so so.....''Life is like a battlefield, you either enter it armed or prepared to surrender...'' Just heard that recently and it moved something in me..... Hope it does for u!! So it's goodbye for now.... And I'll um..... try to write more often... XxoO!
UNTITLED 7!!!Hmm....This should prolly be in the experience group as a story but.....oh well...I'll post it there later.....
So erm...''I do love to travel anywhere anytime, but this time was just.....hmm....something...lolz... sO...I travelled...(I can see you rolling ur eyes already)...lol... Hmmm...this is it.....we decided to travel like the day before...very impromptu....then my mum felt sick and we pretty much didn't prepare all we needed that day. the morning began with...my grand aunt marching into the house blowing a trumpet....lol..(ok...not literarily, buh u get the picture)..screaming at me for sleeping so late..(she wakes at like 4am everyday or something)....oh yeah...so she woke me up, and my mum too...and gave me somethings she got for me and my mum......then I just sat...and finished some work I promised myself I would wake at 6am to finish....then mum decided just then to take a friend along with her....oh 2hours before the flight time...so her friend rushed off to do some work for her, then try to pack her own stuff for the trip and arrange a housekeeper sorta... we then decided to all meet at the airport...Mum and I went ahead of her friend....so we got there bought the tickets...10 minutes to take-off....(thank God the flight was delayed....and that the attendant was apparently my dad's friend...).....I practically ran so fast to the plane to try and stall for mum to come on(I could see some of my hair fall off cuz of the speed...seriously....xD)....her friend, still on her way to the airport....while we got in,...then we tell the flight attendant that theres someone coming and all....that she's there already.... well...long and short, she missed the flight/....(I mean, she would have made it if the driver only listened to me.....told him to teleport...but of course, he didnt listen...*shakes head*...)..ok(is teleport has to be a word...)xD......ok the Indian Pilot was practically screaming, the door shut itself....seriously..... *then my mums friend calls*....she's there....oh no...sorry....she's 10 minutes away.... the plane starts taxing, and all sorts of scenarios come up in my mind....from the possibility of the pilot being kind enough to stop the plane, go back and get her on.....hmmm....oh well that never happend...xD...so she'll be on the next flight out.... ok...now the plane takes off.....the dude is moving at a million kilometres per hour....honest....I kept feeling like my lower back was falling out......the pressure was just soooooo high.....I am sure people started wondering I just kept yawning because my ears got blocked more times than I've eaten breadsticks in my life......(oh well, they yawned too....ha!...they just didnt know I caught em...)...so mumz busy chatting with her seat mate....and am busy yawning....and trying to daydream....but I couldn't...I was too busy saying my possible last prayers.....seriously...I have never seen so much fog in my life.....The sky was pitch white....yeah....pitch white....lolz.....but according to the attendant.....again....the plane's a new generation aircraft so....thingy my jiggy......and all that jazz........ yh right...I just shut my window, kept praying the pilot had some visibility, even if by magic.....and when in times of some turbulence, just kept saying to my mum ''u know this airline flies fast....u know the pilots are just very fast right?'' and she'll go ''oh yeah''...and I'm like ''remember when we that one hour flight took 45 minutes right?'' and she'll go ''oh yeah....they are just fast''....then I go back to silently praying.....(so much for all the sweet daydreams I coulda had...)..... *welcome aboard ladies and gentlemen*....captains voice chimes in....and I'm like.....''oooooh snap!''....o'course I didnt say it out loud......(on one flight, we practically bounced on a cloud and everyone on board just went like Jesus!.....the rest was chatter, it became like a confessional, and restoration service.......even the attendants' eyes popped out...no kidding...)....couldn't risk havin that again...nyhooo.....he just announced we'll prolly be landing in a few, and all....so..''whew!''....but there was a time during his announcement he paused....my heart skipped....in the end I was like ''mum, that pilot should never be aloud to speak again''........lolz.... ok...so after about 50 minutes or so in the air......we LaNNNNdddEEEddDDD!!! yay!!!!... the end... P.S.: isn't this the dumbest blog ever?lolz.......I'm just bored in this Htel....blah! I just want to take the time out to thank you all for being who you are......To those I talk to and those I don't....I appreciate you all, the comments, hugs, times u've just been there, and even your stories and blogs.....they have touched my life much more than I can explain.....there are many stories I've read, some I've commented on, and some have been too beautiful for words....but have meant a lot to me.....Thanks for being there, for being you and commenting....lol...yh comment....haha...(now I sound desperate...).....I can't explain but I want you to know, you bring a grace to this world....and you are all too beautiful for words....Don't ever give up!....*everything you're looking for is within you...*...and as you take steps to look deeper, you'll find it....very near!.. XxoO!
UNTITLED 6!Ah!...u lie...! u lie! why? why? why? U say the peach is a pear and that there's nothing there. and thats its bronze and not gold that it's all become something too old.
Ah!.....don't lie...don't lie! to hearts like mine....oh so shy! that see the morning come and the mists away they've gone Turning into a feather I fly away slowly with the blue weather.
Ah.....I now see u're lie! my wounded heart may slowly die I have no right to touch this plinth because It's beyond my own pith Hmm....I can only ravishly envisage... Our hearts under the winter's blankets.
Lexxis! XxoO! 10.03.2010. 19:12...
(*)...Dear stranger...So I was going through some old notes I wrote on my phone and found this. A letter I once wrote to someone a while ago....not the greatest of words...but one of the things I really meant when I wrote.
Hello stranger, You know, there's always something in life worth the wait. If you are patient you'd find out. Things change but they don't always have to end (nor change for worse). Life is so short and many people wish for a double one: to relive the memories they want to have forever. But one thing it (life) gives us is chance, for hope, for trust, for love and for LIFE itself. A chance to make lasting memories. It's funny how you have everything in front of you, and yet it seems so far. But a beautiful thing is the fact that if you really want it, you fight, no matter how long, till you get it. It may seem like reaching for a star, but so what?...stars can fall right? Why give up?...Press on! Because what is yours is yours, and is worth fighting for. In life there are many things and some friendships worth keeping forever, some that end but memories linger just to keep you smiling. (There are such things as invisible friendships, you may not see, but they are there.). That's why you should open your heart with no fear and you'd surely find them. Years pass, time lapses, but not everything dies or should die as time goes by. There are things that last and should last beyond forever, side by side or far apart. Don't let your dreams slide off course. Keep them dear because they do come true. I wish everyone had the courage to do this, then maybe the world would be a better place. No violence, no drugs, no negatives caused by trashed dreams. So treasure what you have before it slips away and you drown in regret. If you find a priceless treasure, seize it that moment before it goes away. Take what belongs to you before someone else takes what does not belong to them. I know you may have heard all this before, but read between the lines this time, and don't ignore this that may save you. You never know what you have until you lose it, but you don't always have to lose. Nothing stays the same and you cant be sure of much in life. But you can be sure you are loved. you can be sure you will love, and you can be sure you will change, but you can also be sure you determine the changes. Life's not all about today's ecstasy or cheap thrills, it's about tomorrow's possible regrets, tomorrow's consequences, the people that will be tomorrow. Don't throw your future away for some cheap thrill today. Build your future from worthy thrills. Love is the beauty of life. But think, we all struggle just to have great lives and yes, love is a part of it. The most confusing part actually, I guess that's why many run away from it and emotion, because of the risk of hurt it entails but fulfillment lies in the joy after the pain. One thing you should never let go of is the complicated simple truth, your bond between you and the one you love. Never let go of her, ever. You once told me.......~(part excluded)....all I can wish is to know what makes you happy, so I can make you happiest, to be a cell in your blood so I'd be sure I was somewhere in your heart. Funny how it ends when you just want it to last forever. But well there's no need to say goodbye, cause in my heart I am your friend forever, come what may. I am a friend, always, not just in ur heart, but right by ur side to support u.
Love, a friend that was.
I think this letter is still somewhere in a box.... Dated - First quarter of 2008. XxoO!
I Can Go The Distance...HerculesJust listend to this...and wanna share....
I have often dreamed mood-slightly better...
UNTITLED 5!Hmmmm!.... Maybe it's selfish to wish there cud be at least one person fully devoted to me or smthing close to that, just for this period...just for a few weeks till all this is over!...to call evry night just to say I care...and evrything will be fyn.... I hav to be sttrong for her....and really thats no burden...I love to be there for her....but It's not a bad idea to hav smone else to tell my deep fears, and weaknesses, and frustrations and havin that person say smthing completely selfless and meaningful back....is it?.....I didnt think it wud be this hard....hard to try to sustain the face of hope, of a smile....because we both cant afford to lose faith at the same tym....It's so easy to tell the world to believe, to hope, to stay strong, that things will be better......I wish I always believed that, especially now.... I hate to complain....I dnt feel I hav a right to....maybe I'm just too blind to my blessings....or too insecure to accept good things and love, even from family, or maybe am too busy wishing I had evryone elses life because I can't seem to figure out wat I wanna do with mine anymore....getting weaker evryday...losing and drive to dream...to succeed....to be all I live for....What do I live for???...my mum...God....wat else????.....erm..... I'm tired.....lethargic...sleepy...and TIRED!!!......seems to gte worse evryday..... some streak of light???? the silver lining????? some gratitude and open eyes to see that these are alreDY HERE??????? It shudnt be this hard to stay happy.....shud it?.....I just cant keep drowning in all this....do u think its self pity???/...stupid selfish self pity?....or that I actually myt hav a ryt to feel this way????.....
hmmmmm......
My mood: somewhat depressed
ARRRGH!!....This is it... ARRRRRRGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.... ARRRGGGGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!......... ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!...... ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...... (bench thrown into the pool!!!!!)...ARRRRRRGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!...... (Hair flung in the air)......AARAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRAAAAARRRRRRRGHHHHHH!!!!! (break glasses)......HARRRGHH!!!!...HJARRRCGG!...ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! WHEW!!!!
I'm sorry I dialledThe day started great....I was happy about the previous sunday We all got some sort of energy boost, and thot we shud try something fun, It seemed perfectly harmless to me at the time...
So I dialled u, cuz u were the first on my mind and said all I did.... Dialled the next day, and a few days after too Ignoring that my gut was telling me I shudnt anymore It was just so much fun, having u wonder so much.. I didnt think of how u'd feel when the truth was out...
And well....as I was getting rid of last years gabbage I thot I had to let this one out too.... So I eventually told u...thinking u'd just laugh it off and move on....maybe throw in a few words about how good the act was... But all u did was say u'll get be back real bad!.. and maybe now hate me....
So thinking ur anger wud fade in a few....I dialled you the next day.... but there.....the friendship was actually over....the frendship is actually over.,... maybe smthings are better left unsaid... but this was a perfectly harmless thing that u've taken so personally... I'm wondering f it's not just a way to get rid of me... like u're thanking God for this, more reason to hate me....
I wish I cud take back wat happend....... Watever it is we had was obviously just hanging an very thin ice... I wish I didnt now just break it....Or I wish u cud hv a better sense of humour... I miss u already.....I miss my love of love....
I'm sorry.... I'm sorry I dialled u that night and the next!
Lexxis......12.01.10!
UNTITLED 3!So am just sitting here wondering what to write now....nothing's really in my head but I feel like I just have to post smthing, for some reason....erm...ok, so watchu think I shud write about today?.....friendship?....oh no, am not game for that ryt now....erm.....love....oh wud love to but that'll jjst go on for days and days and days......ok....bing! UPDATES ON MY LIFE....!!!!!!! erm....so lately I've been checking out colleges and sorting which ones to apply to and all....It's really given me some sort of purpose if I may say, some sort of push to dream again in a weird way...lol....anyway, thats been a great ride.....oh then I fell sick like a few days back, I honestly think the virus had been in my body for over six months and just acted up nw....funny wen I say acted up....anyway...am better nw, thank God......uh....I prank called this frend of mine and nw I really wish I hadnt...or do I?...anyway the frendship is nw on the verge of crashing if it hasnt already cuz of that...or well its shudnt be that bad(I hope!).......family's gon back to their respecz places...(miss em tons).....buh well looking 4ward to nxt Christmas....(oh btw...that was a while back)........ Does this year just seem to be like a year for changes and moving on or smn?.....my aunts moved to pursue her future.....frenz goin off to skool.....we're getting new stuf....prolly moving soon.......college...ah! can't wait for COLLEGE! for some reason I dnt wann go to one where I knw so many pple....I wanna go where not too mNY pple knw me......for some reason....wAIT~!!! is that good????????????.......anyway! oh I hav this aunt that kinna tends to annoy me, even tho I wish I didnt let her get 2 me so much.....she has so much and still is so -ve.......how does smone hav a large house with many rooms and all and not want anyone staying wiv her wen they visit or smn?.....or well not that she'd throw u out, but shed just make u feel so unwelcome, u'd throw urself out!!!!!!....watev....I'm doing away wiv all that this year!!!!!! So also, Ive noticed at nyt I get scared and sad wen evryone goes back home.....but I think am getting past that...Thank God!......and learning to have an attitude of gratitude in evry situation....like wher the Bible says Rejoice always!!!!!! it means not just in good times......ALWAYS!!!!!!!!!! so I think Am really tryin to learn that.......more aktiviti....gosh I miss my cuzins!!!!.....oh thats btw.... Okay....2010 is here.....New start...new chance....new hopes...new beginnigs.....new things....new opportunities....and soooooo many possibilities...(ah!dnt u just love possibilities :)...)......To everyone let's make the most of this year...let's get rid of the baggage of 2009, the weight, pain, tears, fears, and every ounce of negativity, and remember that u're opponents do not exist, they are only mere dissenting voices of the truth u speak........and hav a fantastic, fabulous, fashionable, inspiring, financially rewarding, beauty filled, joyous New year!!!!!!!!...and REALLY I mean it "HAVE ONE..." XxoO! P.S.: This is the randomest thing I evr worte here I think.....lol... Oh b4 I go...herz smn I love....."LET US ALL LEARN TO LIVE PAST LIFE'S DISAPPOINTMENTS AND REMEMBER THAT EVERYDAY WON'T BE SUNSHINE, BUT WHEN YOU ARE CAUGHT IN DARKNESS AND DESPAIR, REMEMBER THAT IT IS IN THE DARK NIGHT THAT U SEE STARS AND THE STARS WILL GUIDE U HOME, U MAY NOT GET EVRY THING U WISHED FOR (THIS YEAR), BUT U MAY GET MUCH MORE THAN U EVER IMAGINED"...and I quote quite mixed-uply...lol....!!! Cheers...to a new US!!!....:)
TO NEED A FRIEND!One to call me everynight till the storm is over One to tell me the days will get merrier One to hug me when I feel afraid And to hear the things that I cud never have said One to tell me I'm beautiful and worth something One to believe in me when the road seems daunting One to walk right by my side And to be there for me through each stride One that I'll be there for But will be there too and care more One to understand my heart's message And to help me get rid of life's baggage. XxoO!
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